Sunday, December 18, 2016

Letters To…

Letters? Man, I love writing letters! Let's do this!

Dear NIL. 2016 was a bomb. You failed, but not as hard so kudos for that. Sincerely—

Oh. I have to do this seriously? Well, that's fair, I suppose. -sigh- Alright, let's do this then.

2017 is right around the corner, as is my birthday. I'm a little intimidated because it feels as if many years have passed that have been more of the same. However, many shocking things have also happened, and I don't mean just the bad. I mean in good ways too.

At the end of 2015 (which honestly still feels so close), I made 5 interactive fiction games with my own two hands. And while I haven't made quite as many so quickly (time and what not), I've coded a few that have all been interesting. I've worked on one consistently throughout the year. and while it's still not done by the time this is written, it's the most consistent thing that I've done in a long, long time.

The end of 2016 proved to be just as interesting as I wrote a book, which I'm still pretty proud of. And speaking of writing, I've finished a major project that had been with me for almost two years. Sure, it was fan fiction, but the thing is when I started working expeditiously on it, it passed by. I love it, and I'll miss returning to it. I also finished part one of another fan fiction project, and I can't wait to start.

What happened in the middle? I moved. I finally left Georgia, and I did it of my own accord. There were a lot of bumps and hiccups before and after— hell, there are still hiccups now— this year has helped open my eyes. I'm well and truly fed up.

So what does this mean to you, who waits for me in the future? You might think 'nothing'. Fucking nothing, but it has everything to do with you. Because now, I'm not going to let you get in my way, regardless of what form it takes. I've decided to go deeper into my head and break and break and whatever fragments fall from me will all be products of a greater success that's trying to unfold. This means that I've picked up steam. And while I fight and question myself, you cannot deny the things that I plan to create.

2016 has shaped me to be a person of mindless creation, and that's all that awaits for me. More and more things will unfold. So for you? This means that I am a train blowing past the station. I don't want you to keep up or even keep tabs.

Merely to keep out of the way.

So, my friends in 2017… I'll see you then.

Letters To… is a series dedicated to writing letters—both opened and closed—to different things and people in hopes of learning to let go of things, taking responsibility for things and growing as a person.

For me, I was tagged by mchi.

1 comment:

  1. Can I just say that I’m a bit chuffed that you even included the series title I made for my letters. I wasn’t anticipating it and I just--I’m so terribly easy to please. Haha.

    This was a bit of different take from the original campaign, but I like it nonetheless. A huge reason as to why I wanted to see what you would say was because of this. I’m glad you’re allowing yourself to break and rebuild. You deserve it, at this point. I hope 2017 goes better than 2016, gods know you need a better year. ❤

    mchi | mchiouji —


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